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[teylaminh]

I had a really good entry planned to go here.  No, really.  It was going to be fairly lengthy and involve bits of lyrics from various songs that appeared, in order, on my latest MP3-player tracklist.  But, as usual, as soon as I sat down to try and remember all the bits that were in my head, it filed itself neatly in the "I don't think so" part of my brain and refused to come out again.

So you'll have to make do with this rather pathetic effort instead.

I was meant to be going to the pub quiz at the Jug of Ale again tonight, but due to lack of organisation, bad weather, crankiness and general apathy, I really can't be bothered.  Lager is apparently preferable to my company, but right now, I can see why.

Fuck.

"I'm wrong and I'm sorry, baby..."

That's the only bit of lyric I can remember I was going to put here.

I'm going to bed.  No, wait, I'm going to phone Aisha and then I'm going to eat, and then I'm going to bed.

Edit: After phoning Aisha, I learn that the following people have been invited to our meal out on Saturday, apparently:

~ Crystal
~ Rachel
~ Salma
~ Gemma

She'll get back to me about actual attendance at some point.

Crystal I'm fine about. Rachel I'm somewhat dubious about as we did part on rather negative terms, from what I remember, and have changed ridiculously since being at school. Salma, if she can come, would be weird as Hell since I've not seen her since A-levels, but knowing Salma she's not likely to come. As for Gemma...

...holy shit. Just... shit. As if the latest bout of familial angst wasn't head-fucky enough, all of that has to be dragged up again. The last time I saw her she made it patently obvious she wanted nothing more to do with me, and it seems that Aisha's the only one she's stayed in contact with; she accidentally emailed me once with a mass forward and I emailed back to extend the olive branch and got no reply. As far as I'm concerned, that friendship ended a long time ago.

And I thought the nostalgia ended back in October. Oh, how wrong I was...

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[thefleshfailure.livejournal.com]

*hugs...*
*has nothing of value to add*
*...just hugs*

[teylaminh.livejournal.com]

There are days when I think that the friends I have now can out-weigh those I used to have... and then they come back to haunt me. The bastards.

Nostalgia has teamed up with Fate, it seems... :(

[thefleshfailure.livejournal.com]

I don't think there are enough words in the english language to express how well I understand that at the moment.

Nostalgia always was the fickler of the two mistresses. Either that, or she's just plain cruel and heartless. They both need to go up against each other on Jerry Springer - mebbe they'll kill each other.

[yoshi.livejournal.com]

Then point out to Aisha she laying the ground for an argument and therefore a shit Birthday meal for her... and we'll see her some other time.

Or, we go and see if it turns out okay, I assume these people also know that you have been invited and will either be okay with that or avoid you.

They can't want to see you just to be bitchy surely??

[teylaminh.livejournal.com]

It's not so much arguments, just... gah. I can't explain; there's too much history. Last I heard Gemma had been brought down a notch or two by various drama school rejections, but she also hurt me, a LOT, which I don't think anyone ever realised...

I'm sure it'll be fine; we're all meant to be mature adults, after all. There's every possibility Gemmy won't be able to make it, and Rachel may well still be in Cardiff being a proper Occupational Therapist (and there's a whole load of issues right there, too...)

In fairness, it'd probably do me some good to see everyone again, but it's also very nerve-wracking...

I meant to add - she may be able to book the table for 4.00, not 5.00, so that'll save on the mad rush.

[yoshi.livejournal.com]

I know how it can be with old friends... when you saw Alam at mine that was the first time I'd seen him in my house in years, that was odd, felt wrong somehow, like it was a part of the past there in front of me or something... I'm jabbering...

Gemmy?? You pet name people you don't like?? That's odd. I can guess at the OT issues...

Yeah, it will probably be cool and is just nerves.

That would be handy.

[teylaminh.livejournal.com]

Gemma, I meant, not Gemmy. Stupid fingers are rebelling. It's also a lot more complicated than just not liking her; it's more a seven-year-long friendship that basically imploded in on itself.

But anyway, if I'm subdued and antisocial at Mara's thing on Saturday you'll know why...

[yoshi.livejournal.com]

Yeah, that's why I mentioned me and Alam, we'd been mates for about 11 years until it all ended badly... but every situation is different.

That's cool. Sounds like you have reason.