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[teylaminh]

I keep finding myself grinding my teeth today. I'm literally having to consciously stop myself from doing it, because my teeth are starting to hurt... I can't figure out what's triggering it, but I have a fairly good idea.

I''m considering giving up choir. Initially, I was going to hold out until Christmas and see how I felt after the break; then, because of the upcoming concert being generally annoying and time-consuming, I was going to simply ask not to do that concert. Except I don't particularly think not doing the concert will solve anything.

I'm just not enjoying it, basically. There was a point at the end of the last season when I started to feel like I was, but now I'm dreading it... and that can't be good, can it?

Poll beneath the cut. I'm about 75% decided on leaving, but there's a niggling doubt that if I do, it'll be yet another thing I've failed to maintain, and having to explain myself is going to be awful. "I am crap", about sums it up, though there is the issue that I can't commit to something I'm too bloody tired to enjoy. Anyway...

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Thanking you.

Comments

[yoshi.livejournal.com]

As discussed the other day; join another less travelled, less time intensive choir and that may make it more fun and less chore. I voted yes but on that basis only.

You will miss it if you don't replace it IMHO.

[joetimewaster.livejournal.com]

ooh that's a good idea. anything more local sounds much better. I second that idea.

[frightened.livejournal.com]

but there's a niggling doubt that if I do, it'll be yet another thing I've failed to maintain, and having to explain myself is going to be awful

I get that, with the fear of failure and all. But the feeling of freedom can be worth it. It's just a good old CBT thing, where you have to convince your brain "it's not defeat, it's liberation".

[teylaminh.livejournal.com]

Mm, I know that as soon as I quit I'll stop stressing about it, it's just taking the leap.